Leaving meshcloud to start my own business

Tomorrow will be my last day at meshcloud. Packing up after over 4 years to start my own venture comes with many emotions.

Pride, sadness, anxiety, certainty

There is pride in what we achieved at meshcloud and the part I played in it. This overcame me a lot when I wrote the goodbye note to my colleagues. There is also amazement about how far we have come. It's amazing how much better the product got and how much we grew as a team and as individuals. It's so easy to forget this, when you are in the trenches every day, but so powerful to realize how far you get when you do something with focus for years.

There is sadness about leaving something that I was part of for so long. There is gratitude for having been part for it; for all the support I got; for the friends I found. This also came strong over me when I wrote that goodbye note.

There is anxiety about working on something that has a much higher possibility of failing. There is certainty that the decision to start working full time on it, is the right one.

The feeling of being alive

And, most dominantly, there is a sense of spaciousness. I know this feeling from riding my bike; it comes over me when I realize that I have immediate freedom.

One moment I look to the left and see a road that peaks my interest; the next moment I am already on it. I don't spell out why I made that decision, I don't ruminate if the road I was on would've been better. I just take it and go where it leads me.

For me, this is the feeling of being alive.

A new chapter begins

After tomorrow, I'll work full time on my business. Over the summer, I shipped a prototype and got first real world feedback for it. In the coming weeks I will do a lot more validation at in-person events and online. Alongside that, I'll figure out the technicalities of founding a business in Germany.

Exciting times!